well this is probibly a weird way to start a new everyday blog. I feel so strange just coming on and
hitting the add new button(and from now on everyday). But anyway thats not the point. I guess i can just start this whole thing by saying hey.
so hey! im not much of a blogger… or a tumblrer…. or a facebooker of any of that. So if my blog seems a little ameature
then im sorry. Im just a teenager with common thoughts and wonders and words on a screan. Not some high class
ritchie bitchie with all the newest trends and has everything at her feet. The latest Iphone is no where in my grasp
and my parents think its funny that all the nice things i want dont come from the giving tree but eather Santa, the easter bunny, or the magic of my birthday that comes around the corner or… i wish it did. Other than that they tell me to get a job… yuck! But my average life without those fancy things is ok with me.
But anyway! My point is that with all this reality and all this ritches everyone “has” i could live without it. As i was typing that i couldn’t help thinking that Warming up to you guys might not be really hard. You guys are my stage and im not afraid to mess up thats the last thing on my mind. But before hand I want to thank you for at least reading one smidgit of my work. But all in all this is my life….. and i think the three of us will get along pretty well.

Hello world,
I have disappeared for quite a couple of years and tOtally forgot about this place. I received some comments (most of them commercials) but it’s still nice to see someone was paying attention in my time of need. As I look back at many of these memories it’s crazy to think that when I was young I write these things and thought about things a young girl shouldn’t talk or think about. But after a long thought of probibly absolutly nothing I decided that I will use this as possibly a daily blog. All this reminded me of the show I watch called “awkward” but that’s not the point. My point is that eventually someone would see this and could relate to me as close as they possibly can. If you find this in any way inspirational or up lifting then please do share. I’ve decided to write something new everyday so please do come back for a visit (:
Yours truly,
Anon

sealing the ovnvelope of my heart for it sails away
nothing can escape this sadness
creaping up like a spider i try to hush it away
to brush it away
but it bites me with it’s venoumous fangs
i die slowly
hoping that the pain wont last
but it always does
i stand alone
alone on this world
my world
with no one
my tears will never be wiped by u
when i look at u u shun me away
i cry a tear of blood every once in a while
hoping i will inpress u
but u just push me away
like some old cd all scratched up
and not loved
my music is only sad songs now
for no one loves me
the alone one

i am in a pool of sorrow
for she is gone
i stand in the water
like nothing is wrong
i dream of her daily
and i miss her good nights
her hello’s were always warm
and her smile was always bright
i shed a tear
for her time and then
because i loved her dearly
and she always loved me then
but now that she is gone
it is hard not to cry
because her love is with me
always at my side
her hugs i miss
her kisses too
for an amazing grandma she was
and always will be too

they are what you wait for every year
everyday you wish it is your day
jumping for joy and excitement
now that it has come
this day is like no other
for it is your day to shine
your day to reach for the stars
your day to rejoice you
you feel soo special inside
you just cant take it from all the joy
you just feel like exploding
only you are special on this day
you mever want it to end
but when it does you slunk in sorrow
wishing that you have a time machine to go back
no one teats you the same after that day
because your day is over
and gone away
forgotten untill next year
when rejoicing begins again
and then you will be happy all over again

i am dreaming on the cloud of life
floating by like a helpless baloon
thinking nothing but him
like little raindrops

falling in to my mind
i can never ger you out
your silky hair your satten brown eyes
yout love
it is all i think about
it is hard
to be so far away
sometimes i wish i was a bird
so i could just fly away
with nothing holding me back
feeling the wind in my wings
making me soar threw the air
i try not to cry
when i am alone
for i have wished you were there
many times i dream
i dream to be free
with yout love at my side
together forever
but i know it will change
nothing stays the same
your love is like the ocean
for i am like the sand
your love is soo great like the waves
the wind may blow me
but no one will ever love me
and that is why i am alone
waiting for a new begining

Dear readers,
i would like to thank u guies for looking me up. Who ever u are thanks . i think there r readers out there. i hope that there r. well if u r out there r u lisitning? i mean really lisitening?! well if u r and u love the things i write plez leave me a comment. tell me what u think. cus i would really like to know. sincearly the author,
rachel reber

I am alone
Standing on the cobble stone path of life
Thinking of when the day will finally end
So I can shatter the bones of life to pieces
Making those pieces fall like little never ending snowflakes to the floor
Love does not await me with open arms
For it has pushed me aside
Like the vegetables u never want and you push them away
So they wouldn’t dare touch your precious mouth
For fear of non liking taste
It is hard to live life this way
This never ending life of possibilities
They always say to reach for the stars
But I fall whenever I try
The lonely stars twinkle with never ending happiness
For they only belong to the moon’s
But then there is the sun
Shining bright
But alone
The sun brings happiness and joy to the sight
But is so beautiful they demolish a poor soles eyes by a blinding light of beauty
I am not a sun
Nor am I a moon
But I am a star
I shine bright
But dim as life gets hard
People never find me
For I am too far to seek
I will never be found
For I am hidden from the world
Neglecting anything that comes near my way
I don’t want anyone to find me
For I am a lone
I am a lone star

I sit and think
wondering when it will come back
when i see it
all scattered in little cold droplets
falling on my face
without a care
but i dont mind
i enjoy the sight
the smell of it
the feel of it falling on my face
then dripping down like tears
swiftly falling down to the cold cirfice of the cement
i look up
seeing bid never ending clouds
crossing the tracks of the world
without care of getting run over
to you it may seem gloomey or depressing
but to me it’s amore
all my trobles go away
as i get soaked by those tears from the hevens fall
for i know they mean something
something i will probibly never know
or will never understand
this sight is the rain
my one pill of forgetfullness

i am wishing
wishing that this day will last
even thow this day is only once a year
this day makes me feel like im someone
Chirstmas
i dream of this day
more than once
awating for it to come
like a person trying to find there lost dog
they just have to wait
till it comes back
then your happy again
i never want the feeling to go away
sence i always feel alone
and hopeless
all the time i feel like that
everyday
it’s a never ending pain
but i some how get threw it all
it’s just life
my life
but i dream to a day with no sadness
no depreshion
just happyness
and cheer
like never ending sligh bells on a snowy evening
drinking hot coco on snowy steps with frozen fingers
fighting from the cold winds
so they wont get frost bite
when the family is singing carols
around the christmas tree
happy